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Cya there!

Woke up feeling numb. Remembering about nothing and felt no emotion. I did not even felt alive. My mind was crystal clear. I could hear my heart thumping. But all lasted only for a minute. *BANG* Reality hit me. I turn towards my handphone. Only to find I could hold it no longer, can’t bear to even look at it. Timeless. Pure alienation. Isolation from the world. I lay in bed stunned. Started laughing again, for no apparent reason. I was a zombie now. An undead. Alive but feel no emotions. Delirious consciousness. I’m now at a crossroad. The path straight ahead shows mountians, icy cool white fluffy clouds, drifting aimlessly amongst the pinnicle. Lush greenery scars the land. This path is soil. Soft with rain, hard with sun. On my left, a path of concrete, leading towards a village. Laughters could already be heard. Wisps of delicious food fills the air, with overwhelming temptation. Children played around, carefree, away from the mundane troubles that could pierce the very purity of their hearts. This concrete path is well built, with drainage systems to flush out water in rains. But I do not know what it is built upon, what traps may lie within them. It seems like the best path to take, one depicting so much ease. Finally, the path to my right is filled with sharp jaggered rocks, stuck in soil, with glass pieces. It has a wooden gateway, with a lingering smell of incense. Talismans hung low over the beam of the gateway. Afar I see a temple, erected proudly on a little hill. Shrubs surrounds the hill, with huge magnificent willow trees dotted everywhere. THe grey clouds above split right above the path. Light streamed between the clouds, lighting up the path. Tranquility awaits, serenity lingers. I stood rooted to the ground. I turned to look to where I came from, but I see no road, just plain empty cold darkness. I stared at my hand, where’s the feeling that I had before? I felt my heart, it was not beating as hard as before. The cool wind blew at my face, seeping through my hair. Which path should I head for? The end of the beginning? Or the beginning of the end?

Insomia. Blistered. Battered. Cold. Pains still lingering in my chest. Been lifting those torturous weights like toys. Nothing hurts anymore. I’ve hurt many. I’m the Devil of my evil. Everything has come to light. My heart is crystalized. It’ll be awhile before my character takes shape again. For now, I’ve got to tend to the shapeshift process. The rain has washed away the old me. One that was filled with misery.One that clinged onto temporary happiness. One that was hasty and rash. One that just had to go. One that shall never resurface again. Long gone. Now. And forever. I never forget my friends, my relationships. It is just that I keep them, stored away in a corner. Learning to accept people once again. Trying to understand, but sometimes the hints are just invisible. Risking to be hurt, but that’s the way life goes. That’s the way life goes.

Pokies Inc. :: James, Penny, Safy and Dwayne. Friends Forever. Cheers!

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6F :: Miss ya all! Details of yr end chalet will be spread by word of mouth! Hear frm me soon!

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Aura 4 :: Where is all the aura? Hehe! Miss ya all too!

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Friendships are meant to be kept. They are meant to be held onto. What’s the point of making friends that are gonna be your enemy in the future? 1 more friend is 1 enemy less. Take heed. Forgive and forget. Not everything has to come to an end just because of a minor situation. Bonds will be strengthen. Old friends and new friends are still friends. They should not differ in any sense.

Cold hard broke. Where did everything go? Beats me. Anyway, it’s time I get back in gear to studies. Nothing has been going right. Not now, not ever. Things are just not the same when you’re broke. I asked for it. Tennis is really degrading. Lost its ability to de-stress me. Nothing to turn to, noone to turn to. Friends, they just keep disappearing. Disappearing…

Shivered. Shook. Got out of bed at 0930 hrs. Rolled about until I got tired of rolling. Haha. Got up, slacked around. Called Darling. Her nose was still running about. Hope she catches it soon! Get well soon Baby! Anyway, walked to Serene Centre in the rain. To help Dwayne buy ice cream. Was real wet when I got to the bus stop. My CJC Tennis windbreak lost some of its scent. Sighz. The bus came immediately. Dwayne called me just when I was reaching Kovan. Nice timing. Bought Delifrance lunch and consumed at Dwayne’s place. Bumped around in his room. Managed to start with our secret mission. However, it did not turn out… Very well. Haha. Play around with my camera. Confidential pictures! Hehx. Dwyane played tennis against the wall. Ball nearly went into the air-con-water-collecting buckets. 4 FAILED ATTEMPTS! Haiz. Safy’s was going out. Couldn’t use the courts at her place. So went over to Bei’s, my ’sis’, place at Florida to play. Played for 1 hr then headed to the gym to work out. After which came back and play again. Tennis rocks. It has the ability to DESTRESS! Haha. Darling ate ice cream. Haiz. Worrying just seems futile. She still ate it. Haha. Now she’s really worst than this morning. Can’t bring myself to scold her. I never can and never will. Cooled of at the courts before heading for home. Stinky. Aching.Tired. Shivering. Cold.

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Sweetie, hope you get well REALLY soon! Miss ya!

JumzD

Too Serious too Soon - Gareth Gates

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I wonder where you were
I wonder what your thinking about tonight
I wonder
Maybe you’re alone
Maybe you’ve been crying just like me
I wonder
I don’t know why I lost your touch
Maybe I wanted to be loved too much
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Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
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It’s been a rainy afternoon
Now I’m staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon
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I told you every day
I told you every night in every way
I love you
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Maybe you got scared
Maybe I have nothing else to say
But I love you
So baby now my life’s a mess
Cause i’m
Cos I couldn’t love you any less
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Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
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It’s been a rainy afternoon
Now I’m staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon
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Too soon
It’s not right
It’s not fair
It’s in you baby cuts like a knife
What if you were the love of my life
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Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious, too soon
I wanted you to love me
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We got too serious to soon
I wanted to be there for you like no one else before
Too serious too soon
I wanted you too love me
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It’s been a rainy afternoon
Now I’m staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious, too soon

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PennZ, don’t give up. Cause I don’t intend to. Cya after promos.

JumzD

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Troubles.

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Things that wreck plans.

They come at the most sudden moments.

With infinite impact, crushing even the best of moods.

Only time can heal it.

But there will always be the scar left behind.

A slight shock again will split the wound wide open.

This time with more excruciating pain.

No drugs can suppress it.

It is like taking a blow from Lucifer’s scythe.

With no known instant aid to it.

You can only slowly hope for it to heal.

Fearing the risk of being striked down again.

They eat into you faster then SARS.

The pain just numbs you stone cold.

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Filial Piety

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Something that a bear handful out of a heap has.

Something that only the most understanding would know.

Not even talents or smarties would comprehend pure filial piety.

Many think it is just a short term show.

But in fact, it lasts forever, regardless of reincarnation.

Lives are all interlinked.

As children, no matter what feud we may have had before,

It should never ever affect filial piety.

It is plain crystal clear that many do not have it.

Some do, but they limit the amount of filial piety.

It is a boundless intangible thing.

The true colours of it shows.

When your parents are near thier deathbed.

It is sad but true.

It is the society’s reality.

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Darling! Hope you get well soon! Take care of yourself my dear! Promise me.

My Sweetie,

Pretty, charming and wild!

Sexy, hot chilli padi,

That’s my darling, my sweetie, my love.

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Emotions,

Raging like wild fire through my sweetie’s heart,

Mood swings striking like lightning,

Sometimes too sudden for me to comprehend,

But I’ll love my sweetie even more.

I’ll be sweetie’s soothing emotional relief,

Anytime, anywhere you need me,

No questions asked, not even "why?".

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Taurus,

Passionate and romantic,

Eternal loyalty,

But sometimes stubborn.

Just like sweetie and me.

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Stress,

Makes sweetie feel down and sad,

Sometimes cutting herself.

But just as blood trickles down her hand,

So does it seep out from my heart,

That cares for sweetie so much.

I will never leave my sweetie alone,

When sweetie seems out of sorts,

So she can cut me instead,

Rather than suffering even more.

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Friends,

Many close ones that my sweetie misses.

Some others just pressure my sweetie,

Watch out if you harass my little sweetie.

I’ll listen out to sweetie’s problems,

No matter simple or complicated, long or short.

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My sweetie,

My lovely darling angel,

My little cute elvie,

The only one I ever cared for,

The only one that defines me,

The only one whom I love so much,

The one that can make and break me.

My love,

My darling,

My one and only sweetheart,

Penny.

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JumzD to Pennz

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Your presence is tranquility,

your embrace steals my heart away.

You’re my sunshine in the rain,

you soothe away the pain.

You’re purer than crystalline,

one that would always shine.

You’re mere touch is angelic,

you are my lovely seraphic.

I gave you a gift,

one which I can never give again.

You took it with acceptance,

and I too accepted your guidance.

With hearts intertwine,

engraving your soul into mine.

-JumzD et PennZ-

French lessons resumed today. Lucky for me I still have my touch at it! Muahaha. I feared that I had lost it just because of NDP. Safy, Pennz and I met up at Dwayne’s before heading down to the party. It was just super wierd being there. It was just totally 2 different worlds of people. Some of which are just people whom I do not think I might ever want to know in my entire life, just so to stay away from influences. Anyway, Dwayne and I just chilled out at the pool. As in we literally chilled out! It was totally freezing. We waited for both Pennz and Safy the whole time to join us but apparently they came ready only at about 9.40pm. Haha. By then Dwayne and I had already dried out. Safy, Dwayne and I had to leave by 10.30pm. Thank goodness Safy’s parents were kind enough to give me a lift. (: Pennz had decided to stay over.

It’s not the piggybacks, nor the embraces. It’s not just the kisses, it’s you that mesmerize me with your sheer presence, darling.